Adults defined at any early age this is what kids do this is what adults do. Becoming an adult makes you absolutely hate being a kid, our whole lives we’ve heard from the majority kids are annoying, ugh I hate kids, wish they’d grow up! And as kids all you want to do is be an adult, to get that respect as a human, and so if there is a way to separate yourself from the “kids” then that’s the avenue to run down, become an adult…behave. Eventually all of your inner expression gets suppressed to the point where there’s nothing left but an outer shell of yourself that belongs to others, nothing on the inside and now not even something on the outside.
You are made to hate your inner desires so much that even when you do get a little older and finally have the ability to do some inner stretching of those I Matter muscles, it’s a constant battle of feeling guilty for wanting to do what you want to do because it hasn’t been what you’ve been taught for last decade of your life, to follow the norm…be an adult. The problem with being an adult, and adults won’t tell you this, is that as an adult you still do “teenage” “childish” things its just that now you have at your disposal a list of labels (that have been given a negative connotation) to call others to make sure that they know that you don’t make mistakes, not like a a kid at least, sheesh. Cause by my age you should have your shit together, and I for sure have my shit together, no doubt about it. As someone growing up with no help or guidance other than be normal, like an adult, then when you do hit the ages, that have been defined already as the points of accomplishment that must have been finished by then, you go oh man this magical age didn’t whip all of my shit together like everyone said it was going to do. I must be in the wrong then, I must be the failure because I’m certain that every “adult” I talked to growing up and on the daily now definitely seem like they are as content as ever.
This is a pretending of sureness. Adults love pretending, there are all sorts of ways to pretend when you have more money and some adults even take that money and spend it to sit in a chair in front of a screen and watch more familiar adults pretend for a couple of hours too. And if you don’t pretend like the others, either by not knowing how or not being able to or perhaps the very rare chance of not wanting to, then you are made to feel less about yourself because there is absolutely no way you are happy if you aren’t doing what the global default mindset says will make you happy, cause its the only and right way! Look at us, we’re all happy, right guys?
You know, if your friend group and the media and your family talk down about certain types of cars and you happen to drive one of those types of cars eventually you’ll start to believe the trash talking too. And every time you look at it and get in it you’ll never be able to enjoy it like you did when you’re mind was clear of negativity because now a new way of thinking about what you have has been put in your head. The new way doesn’t want you to see what your car has to offer, it just wants you to get a new one, one like the people who are talking. And you listen.